Meditations & Reflections on American Surreal(ism)

Journal Archive: August 12, 2015

The cover of my 2015 composition journal

What do I mean by American Surreal(ism)? Well, it's kind of a psychedelic, optimistic, utopian view of the modern American dream, which now includes the digital, interconnected frontier.

And why do I say "and other gansta shit," in the subtitle of this book? Well, American Surreal(ism) is also kinda gangster. It's an alternate way of thinking, it's against the grain and take some grit. It takes street smarts and colloquial language and translation. It takes strategy and nimbleness and doing what needs to be done. It means constantly reading the environment and going with your gut and knowing who's good people.

It's Surreal because it's energetic. It's digital. It's other dimensional while still somewhat tangible. It's Surreal in that it's also partially daydreamy, hopeful and seemingly unrealistic. It takes balls to put yourself out there and pioneer this frontier.

Sometimes I look around and see so much beauty. So much good. So much tapped potential, all in motion.

It's funny how we can feel really lovely. When we are alone. I think it really has to do with how much we know ourselves. the more I know myself, the more ready I am for someone else. Or at least I think so. I want to find someone on the same plane as me. Same business goals, health goals, morals, and values. I want to share things that make us stronger, smarter, more beautiful and give us greater capacity to love and create.

I have so much energy coming through me lately. I can tell when it's propelling me where I need to go. There is this fine line between experiencing and performing, consuming and producing. They often occur simultaneously for me. The moment the energy hits me, it is converted and reproduced almost instantaneously.

I believe in what I believe. When I am doing what I am meant to be doing—what fulfills me— what gives me life—my surroundings constantly reassures me of it. It's the realest thing that occurs for me.

Timing of it all occurs naturally. I see who and what I need to see. Yet we are continuously constructing the lens with which we view the visual, viewable reality. There is also an auditory reality. A tangible reality. An aromatic reality.

Can we call an emotional reality a reality at all?

Being yourself is the easiest hard thing ever. You truly have to be the boss of your life, the queen of your world. When I get stuck it sucks. And it sucks because I know EXACTLY how to get myself out of it.

Professional Big Girl

I love coming across these lists of positive affirmations interspersed throughout my journals!

KILEY ELAINE SAUNDERS

intelligent

funny

perceptive

energetic

inspiring

empathetic

empowering

authentic

original

strong-willed

confident

wise

smooth

genuine

generous

kind

accepting

forgiving

understanding

lively

open-minded

reliable

flexible

audible

articulate

well-spoken

approachable

trustworthy

badass

trend pirate

solo-adventurer

scribe

inside-out health

honorary member of the "Be a Better Person" Club

Founder o the SSOPWGI and Secret Agent Spy

There is no longer a door in front of who I am, but a window.

K

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